To build my redemption

28 Oct

When I put on a “shit show” I go gravely too far, and the guy I meet in it is not a guy I like at all, nor does or should anyone. The guy I met this time was ten times the ugly, the self loathing and the hurtful. I say this publicly, for there are many I hope will know, I’m giving up that self inflicted prison. I’m banishing the beast whom the ones I love most should never have to meet again. But that horrific being upped the game immeasurably, and it’s going to take more bare, bone deep, tearing down, honest, penitent and redeeming work than I have ever caused myself to do. Je suis prest. Yes, I am finally ready. “The journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step.”

-Lao Tzu

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