Golden Dawn

I wake to you next to me, soft, peaceful, Angelic & eternally, gracefully alive even at rest. I nuzzle down my head to lay it on your belly, to hear the music within you, to sense the power of your breath & cry to God the gratitude of 1000 men, my heart a bright knowing whisper that I’m the luckiest man. I have sought & searched & scraped Divine quarters & I have found my Heaven’s Golden Dawn here with you. -bdf

© october 30, 2011, brent david fraser, stratherrick publishers, all rights reserved

I Knew You A Long Time Ago

I was only walking by, looked at you I don’t know why,
you could have been any other girl
but mythical golden hair’s in every story written where
the boy is growing older in his world

there’s always one you want to make a stand, think that if you have her hand
you can tell your mother where to go
you were just the same as any dream, they never are what they would seem
tell those other ghosts I said hello

cause its a long, long way from me to you
and I think that you’re just a bit confused
I knew you a long time ago
not so hard to see, you’re the same as you always were
you’ve got a better disguise, but I see you. I’m sure
I knew you a long time ago

met you on a rainy night, smoking grass and drinking right
a better friend than I had ever had
no way that I could have known, from everything that I’d been shown
that you would ever turn to be so bad

you had a bit of jealousy, you had to take something from me
you thought I’d always be your second hand
but now we know that isn’t true, so if you don’t know what to do
those other ghosts will help you understand

all you old ghosts tried to bleed me, but your betrayal finally freed me
and I’m feeling even stronger than before
you see I’m getting my momentum, these troubles go to where I send ‘em
no more to come a knocking on my door

saw you as you hung around, you kicked me too when I was down
you never offered shelter from the storm
so I’ve been walking in the rain, I wont be fooled by you again
a devil shows himself in many forms

now I’m not so lonely wandering, now I’m not so busy squandering
much of my self pity all in vain
I’m calm and confident you see, my power has come back to me
from memories that used to bring me pain

May 28, 1992 ©1992-2010 brent david fraser, all rights reserved

She Believes Me

thoughts of you are now a fading rain
and I’ve survived the worst of your curses
I’ve been here before you know I have
I am the silly prince of tragic verses
and your devotion was always shaking
at the sight of my darkness

bleeding through the light in my eyes
I can’t say enough of my new freedom
I tell my secrets now to someone fresher

It is the wind, she is my new companion

And my devotion has been unleashed by the heat of her

breathing, from the deepest fire in the earth, her belly burns

I tell the wind I will walk her skies

and she believes me
she believes in everywhere I know I’ll go
she believes me
remember when I said I’d move the land
if I had to, my faith it is unending,
but you had no god and you had no faith
and couldn’t hear the wind, the word that she was sending
now her devotion is always ripping
at my back and I am

leaping over mountains in my mind I ‘m
dancing under stars I’ve seen in visions
I leave you to your sad misunderstanding
of your pre-life other world decisions
and your devotion is an admirable trait but it is…
fleeting and fleeing when the heavens power is in question
I tell the wind I know this strength

I hope you’re well someday I hope you
find someone to quench the place of all your worry
I cannot tell how it lifts the soul to know
the wind supports me in my hurry
and our devotion it never led to the promised land but…
each of us has the chance now to take the reigns and run
the wind she hears the cry I make for man

April 24, 1992 ©1992-2010 brent david fraser, all rights reserved

Waited For You

I’m gonna wait for you, the days are long and the nights are loose

I’ve got a place for you, my heart has all the space you can use

How will I wake up, how will I make the clouds get out of my head and see

How will I meet you, how will I greet you, what will I say when you come to me

Chorus:

I’m glad to see you smiling back at me

I’m glad the miles have brought you back here to me

I’m glad I waited

We’ll run away into another land

Under the sun and I’ll be holding your hand

I’m glad I waited for you

I said a prayer for you, I sent my thoughts up to the stars at night

I sent my love for you, and wondered when I’d ever see your light

Chorus:

I’m glad to see you smiling back at me

I’m glad the miles have brought you back here to me

I’m glad I waited

We’ll run away into another land

Under the sun and I’ll be holding your hand

I’m glad I waited for you

Bridge:

I’m turning around to see, you’re coming to me tonight

Now I know that I’ll be free, we’re running away this time

Chorus: out——

April 3, 2003 ©2003-2010 brent david fraser, all rights reserved

Heaven, Your Eyes Are

I prayed to the saints that you’d fall on me

Wash over with truth, rain, and set me free

I was so dry til I tasted the drops of you

So thirsty to laugh in the lonely blue

I’m so delighted to believe you’re the end

I thought I’d broken what no healing could mend

But I knew I’d found, in your eyes of brown

You’d show me Heaven, your eyes are, Heaven

Your eyes are, Heaven your eyes are, yes

If I hold your heart, I will have it all

You’ve brought me to rise up, from such a fool’s fall

I step, like a newborn, onto a new shore

And with you, the waves won’t drag me to the floor

Your eyes see some magic in me, your breath is the thunder of songs I’ll write to the wise

Your touch is a million angels hands and your kiss is the light of starry skies

I’m so delighted to believe you’re the end

I thought I’d broken what no healing could mend

But I knew I’d found, in your eyes of brown

You’d show me Heaven, your eyes are, Heaven

Your eyes are, Heaven your eyes are, yes

©2010 brent david fraser, all rights reserved

Love Ends Too Soon

the morning sky’ s been on my mind since seven

the pretty bottles from last night are dry

I dreamed of taking a bus ride up to heaven

dripping candles light the room

waiting for the spring to bloom

and love, yes I guess it ends too soon

I never should have left my mother’s womb

and love, yes I guess it ends too soon

on the roads outside of town I wander

drunk in my religion to be alone

they say that absence makes the heart grow fonder

my empty pockets I assume

are cause I bought up all impending doom

and love, yes I guess it ends too soon

another bad investment I presume

and love, yes I guess it ends too soon

opening a lovely wine this evening

sip it slowly and savor gracefully

the whole thing just gets worse its quickly deepening

I’ll forget that sweet perfume

the more and more that I consume

and love yes I guess it ends too soon

story of a lost and laughing groom

and love, yes I guess it ends too soon

November 20, 1990 Copyright 1990-2010, brent david fraser, all rights reserved

Wrote For One

I drive away an ogre night
Through a deep dark want for light
A bathing ball of bright’s the tired moon

She seems to shiver like I do
And, as well, she’s pale and blue
Her sweet song always ends a bit too soon

And as I long for a home
There’s a song I sing alone
It’s my soft melodic moan to the road I run
Down this highway long and bare
It’s a lonely begging prayer
That I don’t share, because
It’s only wrote for one

Love is wonderful to feel
I’ve never doubted ours was real
But love has never changed my natural state

So, I’m told I’ve lost the game
Because to change is not love’s aim
To just be loved for who you are’s the highest fate

© 2006 brent david fraser, all rights reserved